I recollected on this particular day, that on the long destination to home, i understood what my state was. That is, i was most intensely aware of all the aspects of life surrounding me, and yet of feeling neither part of it nor truly separated from it. Somehow impartial, unattached- an observer. Yet sentient of it all. Very sentient, in fact. Surely this might seem familiar to you too? And always, there's a burning impatience for the next thing to announce itself.

When i was gone, lays gently on my desk, pages raw from flipping. Its my current treasure.. Really. I picked out the right genre;; literature after an hour& a quarter of contemplation in the cold place. I can go all day at the book store. But i never really thought of working in one. I would probably be the grass in a forest.

I finally found what i want as my baptism name. Genevieve Collette!

"Things

are

beautiful

if

you

love

them."

Carebears are also only in fairytales.

"Whatever talents I possess may suddenly diminish or suddenly increase. I can with ease become an ordinary imbecile. I may be one now. But it doesn't do to upset one's own vanity." (to those capable of relinquishing my pride)

I had a wonderful afternoon nap yesterday, though i have to admit i still feel terrible. Work hadn't been friendly and house chores piling up. I guess when a child grows up, no one around is a carebear anymore. I'm not good at doing things when i'm drugged. I was told to hang 2 dresses up high which after countless attempts, i managed to. I, can be a good housewife. When i suddenly found myself in a situation. "OH O.. (clank clonk...............) O DEAR GOD.. i prayed the hanger carrier didn't fall on someone's head." So it slipped off my hand. I froze& conjured my ears for a brawl. Nothing. Thank goodness. Mom: Its just a simple task and now what do we do with the remaining clothes? I went to search for it 10 mins later. Well i've recovered its place but you know cheap plastic breaks easily.. So my mom had to get it replaced.

Every friday class makes me happy. I've to write a review for a movie: Problem child, before this friday. Have you watch it? its a really old movie.. speaking of films, Dan came over my place to watch Indiana Jones2. I think its good though i fell bed bottom a lil here and there.. Love the vintage angle.. I'm into vintage lately.. So this friday the guys are having a drive around somewhere new.. Probably hit the country club.. Any cool places for a perfect hang out?

The human heart has hidden treasures,

in secret kept, in silence sealed:

the thoughts, the hopes,

the dreams, the pleasures,

whose charms will be broken if revealed.

I got my foot pierced

by a Hello kitty stud:[

"Art is imagination that breathe and meanings that burn." I have decided to crank out an illustration for my next tattoo. My fingers are itching for obedience and my sketch book yearns for graphite spilled from pencils. There are moments, above all on June evenings, when the sea that hold our moons are sucked into the earth and nothing is left but memories and the touch of a hand. So its another one week for my memory box to be set definite. I guess i'll miss the lovely darlings. One of the mommy actually adorned an appreciation card& bought a disney pillow for me.. Really touching.. There's this picture of her son, Aden in it.. and pretty ornaments he helped to "glue" it on. Was really touched.. Can't really describe the nostalgic feeling. I just hope to stay in touch with the both of them. Time is starting to bother me, i cranked out a conclusion that i've to begin weighing my options on another job.. Its back to one again.. farewell present.

Peanuut Buutterr

.. are wonderful.

In addition to my desire for food& emotional therapy i also long for:
-Bed
-leisure time
-2 hours of study everyday
-friends
-Dan (adding him to this list because I know everyone reading this is expects him to be on it, and he does deserve his place on it)
-Toy Machines
- Next paycheck. Like now.

"Love makes you grin like a cheshire cat.
Love puddles your face."

I've finally found my flaw. Un-forceful. Most of my life has been ruled by indecision, and i'm grateful when fate intercedes, relieving me from choice and responsibilities for my actions. How do you edit this part of your soul? What is one flaw that affects you deeply?

Ps: love love Peanut butter