Surrveyyy

30 things about you

1. What's your #1 on your top 8 at the moment?

She's at home.

2. what is your fav possession?

My porcelein Dolls.

3. If you see your ex what would you say?

hellogoodbye.

4. What do you think of hotdogs?

Disgusting but yummy.

5. What is your fav christmas song?

all i want for christmas is you.

6. What do you first drink in the morning?

water.

7. Who's your fav model?

Natalie Vodianova

8. Do you take painkillers?

Infrequently.

9. Do you have A.D.D[attention deficit disorder]

haha no, i don't give a damn.

10. Name 2 thoughts at this exact moment.

I'm still sleepy& i've to bathe soon.

11. Last movie watched?

underdog.

12. Current worry?

my future, future& future.

13. Cutest thing in 24 hours?

Dan: yay! My lockpick works.

14. Fav colors?

brown, white

15. What do you fear was going to get you at night as a child?

Darkness.

16. Current cravings?

Don't have any now.

17. Best bed sheet as a child?

can't remember any.

18. Worst injury treated?

stiches under my lip.

19. Who is your loudest friend?

DONNA.

20. Who is your most silent friend?

me.

21. Do you like anyone now?

Love.

22. Do you wish on a shooting star?

never seen one.

23. What is your fav book?

Echoes by Danielle Steel.

24. Fav candy?

marshmellows?

25. What song do you want to play at your wedding?

Iris- goo goo dolls.

26. What song do you want played at your funeral?

Cradle of filth[metal] haha.

27. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex?

uhm yes.

28. Is sex best afternoon, morning or night?

i guess early morning:]

29. Pork beef or chicken?

Fish?

30. Stove top cooking or microwave?

microwave.

If you were to die, what kind of spirit do you think you'll come back as? I think i'll come back as a devious one. Yes, i know me.

I very well know not to divulge my plans yet when my mom says we're going philipiness. And due to unforeseen circumstances my trip is cancelled but my sister& her is going. My mom(guilty) start with her "nursing profession" & then didn't get irate when she saw i wore her pajami. Then a few mins later she blames us for shirking our responsibilities, thus, these happens.

Anyways i feel so un-empty on wednesdays, thursdays, saturdays. If i have nothing on, frontage takes over. But i usually do which makes me a busy person for an 18 year old. It's the right way right, they say that we gotta live our life to the fullest every second. So... i am. Also, it makes me wrap myself thicker& thicker from the future. Like using more foils over the plates repeatedly knowing your food is protected from the contaminated air. Thou during the process i'm coated with suger floss lovingly by my bf. I now decided life depends on slight happy satisfaction to make you not fall off the table. Have to go! Bye!

It's in between the spaces.

On the cellphone one night;;
Genevieve: Remember what's our very first movie we watched?
Daniel: mm wait uh...

Silent for approximatly 2 mins& then i laughed out loud.

Genevieve: you don't remember do you?
Daniel: i'm still thinking... do you remember?
Genevieve guilty: Aww... hee i'm trying to revive it but can't.

'It' means Memories. They aren't stored in the heart or the head or even the soul, if you ask me, but in the spaces between any given two people. At least we remember the location of the threatre.

17/9/07

Some days you just wake up and want to lie in bed all day long,
just be alone. Watch re-runs of the O.C
&wish you had lives like them,

but you know that that's not real. But for that moment, you want to believe

it all is, the luxury in the mansion, college applications.
And honestly, that's all that matters,

just believing.
Sometimes we forget what it's like to just pretend, we're so caught up with

everything in our own lives
we don't have any time to dream.

You can't exist in a world without leaving a piece of yourself behind. There are concrete cal de sacs, like credit card receipts& appointment registrations, or promises created with others. When i delve into my previous previous background, i see the few of us kids, playing& owning lands unofficially. The grass was greener before.

Right now, most of us have avalanche of trepidation mixed with temptations of explorations. Tell me, what do when you have everyone loose at your fingers& a capsule of frightening propositions yet to open? So i came to bayshore recently& today. The place where some of us' roots once were& always will. Anyways i'm at belle's crib for slumbering& we spent the whole noon eating, walking relaxing including a teensy boring juncture that goes something like this-

Me: Why is that guard doing near the rubbish chute?
Belle: mmm maybe he's checking the bin for dead bodies.
Me: (So I thought gory movies played a great part)

Then we hung at the 33th storey(i had hard time looking down down). The sunset was just beautiful. I never knew in this country i can be still fall out of grace with the world. The sky was just beautiful. Have i mentioned that already? okay... Soni believes i can manipuate people easily with my "innocent" face. You know like the spanish cat in Shrek. I didn't know. Haha.

where it leads...

Pink i can't believe i chose pink.

there's no frugal person in me that i can suspect. I rather laugh my ass off than comtempleting on fundimental issues of niggles. Especially today, movies with my younger brother;; ra-ta-too-ee. Okay so i'm happy i spent more time transcend to any other months with my siblings after the inital outing. I actually rid the shyness out of them. Most of it, which is good cause i rarely see them. Well... let's say certain minor circumstances are to blame for this sparodic separation.

Just i heard from my grandma(she updates me with all the news) to beware of poisonous toys made from china. Not that i am surprise as asummingly thought they are doing it for income no matter the materials are what what. But... no. So, Soreloser & another band which i forgotten the name are performing this Sat& i'll be going. I saw few of them on the streets before before before& didn't know they were the ex-Pugjelly until one of my friends(forgot who) were screaming like an imbecile:]

I still feel this weird feeling i felt a week ago, vividly. The effects of being put to an unplanned calastrophobic test. I was in the cubicle on the gound floor ladies when all lights gave off. Leaving my skin feeling around the secluded space for my possessions& the door-lock. No accecptions to make me at ease even when there's like 10 people in the ladies too. I hurriedly cleanup& ran out. I saunted blanky initially forgotten where Dan said he'll be. Then i saw him;; back to safe harbour, wet eyes.

Old movie effect

Every 6weeks on a sat would be cartel day where my proportion of breakfast fits a sow. Then my Dad would minicky plan for lunch straight after. He reminds me of Fred from flintstones. He has the exact body of a character in bedrock haha. Anyways i suppose satisfaction for me comes from getting the books i yearn. So happily my Dad has made me now that Willian Boyd's book lies newly on my lap.

According to me, i can assimilate cream peanut butter cus they aren't visible nuts. But Mommy thinks there's no contrary. Like "where such logic!" she'll rebuke me. At most being fractious would permitt a minor malady& that i had had a juncture of celestial? Okay I shall watch HSC2 now. Bye!

Digging my insides

I actually wanted to wear this white top to a friend's band performance when my mom said it looked ugly& so she gave me hers from paris. Unhonest enough i didn't reject to it. Don't be mistaken, it is nice but not comfy for the occassion. I always think i have no particular style& that i choose what i feel like wearing. So i went to the public ladies to change back into my ugly top.

I figured what i'll submerge into as an interest. The thing is, i hope i'll be succumb to this& i'll have to do it secretly. Anyways i too figured what messed me up. Regretfulness. I'll assumed rejection& unexisting second chances then i run. A short situation ytd vacate all these doubts which supposedly made me angry.

Sometimes the prettiest things i don't know how to draft. Descriptions just go blank in my mind but the hidden smiles are there. At one point of time i can predict his un-swerving love just by a light peck from him or a closely resting position we sit by. In the end i rather keep those thoughts than write about it. It feels more precious.