17/9/07

Some days you just wake up and want to lie in bed all day long,
just be alone. Watch re-runs of the O.C
&wish you had lives like them,

but you know that that's not real. But for that moment, you want to believe

it all is, the luxury in the mansion, college applications.
And honestly, that's all that matters,

just believing.
Sometimes we forget what it's like to just pretend, we're so caught up with

everything in our own lives
we don't have any time to dream.

You can't exist in a world without leaving a piece of yourself behind. There are concrete cal de sacs, like credit card receipts& appointment registrations, or promises created with others. When i delve into my previous previous background, i see the few of us kids, playing& owning lands unofficially. The grass was greener before.

Right now, most of us have avalanche of trepidation mixed with temptations of explorations. Tell me, what do when you have everyone loose at your fingers& a capsule of frightening propositions yet to open? So i came to bayshore recently& today. The place where some of us' roots once were& always will. Anyways i'm at belle's crib for slumbering& we spent the whole noon eating, walking relaxing including a teensy boring juncture that goes something like this-

Me: Why is that guard doing near the rubbish chute?
Belle: mmm maybe he's checking the bin for dead bodies.
Me: (So I thought gory movies played a great part)

Then we hung at the 33th storey(i had hard time looking down down). The sunset was just beautiful. I never knew in this country i can be still fall out of grace with the world. The sky was just beautiful. Have i mentioned that already? okay... Soni believes i can manipuate people easily with my "innocent" face. You know like the spanish cat in Shrek. I didn't know. Haha.