School.

Dan: Did you ask for any of your classmate's phone number?
Me: No. Must i?
Dan: Yeah just in case you can't find your lecture room or the dates of tests
Me: Oh o i din. But still i won't ask. I've never ask.
Dan: BUT STILL..

First day of school was fun. I slipped slightly off awhile but its was fun. I felt like spagetti ryte before i push the lecture room door open. Was it too early to be incessantly trapidated? Nope. 2 years since my separation with textbooks& whiteboards. Whatever i just typed makes perfect sense to me. Next class to-bring list: Any one piece of print media. This i lame i know. But i'm forgetful.. i myte forget still. Wahhh... i dun want to move my ass to work tml. I'm at work everyday. Yes everyday. My body, needs rest. Ok, so I'm the type of person who can get by with very little sleep. But I haven't been this tired in awhile so I'm trying to go to bed BEFORE MIDNYTE. I'm cashless too. Thanks to cheap Utopia batik tops.

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Kim: Having a crisis are we?
Michael: Do I look like I'm having a crisis?
Kim: Everyone I know is having a crisis. I know you're not supposed to get them until midlife but I think something's happening to our metabolism
Michael: Our metabolism?
Kim: [nods] Yeah, I mean the world is moving so fast now, we are all chasing something so fast that we start freaking out long before our parents did. Feel my heart.
[puts his hand in her chest]
Kim: Feel how fast it is?
Michael: ...that's a fast heart.
Kim: ‘Cause we don't ever stop to breathe anymore...
[takes his hand off her chest]
Kim: You gotta remember to breathe or you'll die.

Stephen: Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing. It still doesn't mean anything. What you feel only matters to you. It's what you do to the people you say you love, that's what matters. It's the only thing that counts.



"I like how everything looks when the sky bawl."

"I'm into flowers lately."

"When i die.. i want to be enclosed with my porcelein dolls, be as white as phosphorous& have hair lengthed below my breasts."

"I like peeping at people's faces at the movies."

"I eat ice cream in cold weather."


I want to know your deathwish. "When i die... "

"Lying is the most fun a girl can have without taking her clothes off"

I think i'm with hypochondria. I keep poking at my abdomen. But well.. it hurts like its self-twisting some organs inside.. so i'm going back to the doctor again tml for the 3rd time this 2 weeks:] Crossed fingers* I hope its ntg. Today i wanted to do a little hello kitty shopping.. I wanted to buy the doll. Its really cute.. with the tutu& all. Anyways Rard& i talked about tattoos. I might get more, just small ones. Soon i guess..

What's your most fav quote?

D: Okay if i shout at you will you get angry?
Me: No I'll fly away like a bird.

Home on the weekends

Jonne: how are you?
Me: Like there's a monster clawing at my throat like my eyes are glued& i need a wild boar to chase me.

Last few days i've been sickly. Its not fever.. I don't get hot. I never did since i was 14? But its the throat so i visited the doctor earlier this morning& well i spent $80.. so shitty.. I'm down with gastric reflux that could alter my life forever. Really i meant forever. I had it once before& i believed it won't come back again but i was wrong. No milk, coffee, fruit juice, pepper, chilli, late nights, supper, skipping meals or anxiety. I'm unhappy at work.. My manager even wanted the details of my malady today. But as my boy said, work is ending in June& i won't see them again. Right, everyone comes& goes. I will be moving once more sometime this year. I think i 'll need a new bed& covers. Coco's fur is terrorizing every surface. I shouldn't take anything seriously anymore. Who wants to be serious anyways. Life is too short. You wouldn't know what happens next. Like the cutest stray cat on Earth that i named Butter clawed at my hand last nyte>.< My cat wounds swelled within a minute so Dan brought me straight to the Mama shop for primitive first aid. Which is detol first to ugly plaster. I'm gettin a hello kitty one later.

Current fave song: Today's the day by Aimee Mann.

What's yours?

"no one is free, even the birds are chained to the sky."

I did something new yesterday. It was nice of him to bring me. I realised how much i have been missing.

Prayers tonight.

Diary;; A personal record of occurrences, experiences, and reflections kept on a regular basis.

I keep my brain out of reality. Always surrounding than be in it.. as if it is an envelop of a letter. I twisted the law of pen. Mystery.. as some said. On this day, i do not know how to pick up phallic quotes.. poems to describe the floating platitudes.

It was like a déjà vu but she was on the line and i dreamingly walked closely. We were trying to find the library. Then my ears jumped on my mother's note. $60 000 by this week. I peeped at her eyes. Shiny.. Like a marble. I've told my lawyer i can't get that much.. it was unfair that everything was placed under my name& now i have to bear everything. I do not even have a permenant house. Its not that i don't want to pay you But that i can't.. Do you remember the time when you were worried your seeker would find you as you hide on the pipes of the carpark? Dear Lord, i pray they won't find us.

All day i remembered my hiding place. It was the best place. No one found me. As my mom and i walked, torturing words linked its hands with us. They took the house, $250 000 of deposit that belongs to my grandmama but it weren't enough. For 7 yrs i've paid by instalment.. it can never clear so now they want the whole. Mommy didn't want to tell you because there is nothing you can do. I really feel like giving up all. My heart fell like a broken elevator. Please keep this to yourself at home.

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I want a white oleander tattooed below the one "bare", I want another word;; faith on my foot, i want hours to scroll by shelves of literature books. You read for refuge. One book provides a free ticket to live the lives of many characters. If you're emotionless, which would you choose?

You're such a sensitive child.
I know you're tired but it's alright
You're gonna have your day in the sun
you know god loves the sensitive ones.

I am trying to re-introduce myself to the world.. I can't figure what it is about me that says i need to pencil a line with humans. Or that at least get their favourite song/movie/book ecetera. Or that i shall secretly pluck beneficial lines from someone else. Kidding.. I won't regret what my mouth doesn't brings me. Just work on Wednesday wring this thought.

I think i've finally cried too hard. Cause my same elbow knocked the walls twice. That juncture, i could just hear a nail under a working hammer. The same night my mom prepared her annual specialty.. Mee robus. Yum! I got her buttercup cake. Happy mother's day.

Gold smudge of light with dust dancing within it reached into God's house. It splashed onto my right cheek.. down to my body that is bare. Tranquility.. i felt.. like you landed on pillows from the blank above. Lovely.

Here's me dancing. hahahah. Anyway what's your biggest pet peeve?

Its been a week& now i'm back at my Dad's. Well i still only got to see him for an hour.. Played a bit of puzzle games with my brothers. Missed them so much. Today was eventful.. I think i should bury my cell somewhere.. Work was hectic always.. I got a call bout the cheque on my school fees being returned. Its the signature>,< Going Douby tml just to give a new one.. Anyway My blog is dying.. so here's a lil color;] I quite like the pictures.

I won it at the toy machine today.

XO.
Taken by Daniel.
The coffee-maker was cool.

I must be imagining things.
I should sleep more.
No dizzy spells or monsters clawing at my throat.

In other news, i just got back from St Pat's which the day of recollection was held. I can't wait for next april.. So i'm afraid of the heat. I feel like melted tomatoes on a pizza. I pray for an imminent dew point. Last night i had one of the bad sleeps again.. so shitty.. i got my cure in the morning & am excused of work. Yay. Only a few more weeks to another job, i hope i'll get one in Newman or related ones. I might set up a page of idiosyncratic writes.. base must be white.

Sleeping time.

What's in your bag?

I carry tons of things i don't use at all.

Its my fault i forgotten every pattern in the house.
Its my fault i missed the parts where they grow up.

Its my fault i never go back.

i'm into phone charms lately. Even hello kitty ones or any Sanrio products. I have a bout 5 hanging on my cell& i loveee it though i get slapped on the side of my face. Anyways i want to spend another 1/4 of the day watching Iron Man. I nae fancy modern technology but Butter fingers spins me. So what is your type of superhero?