Monday, May 12, 2008


Diary;; A personal record of occurrences, experiences, and reflections kept on a regular basis.

I keep my brain out of reality. Always surrounding than be in it.. as if it is an envelop of a letter. I twisted the law of pen. Mystery.. as some said. On this day, i do not know how to pick up phallic quotes.. poems to describe the floating platitudes.

It was like a déjà vu but she was on the line and i dreamingly walked closely. We were trying to find the library. Then my ears jumped on my mother's note. $60 000 by this week. I peeped at her eyes. Shiny.. Like a marble. I've told my lawyer i can't get that much.. it was unfair that everything was placed under my name& now i have to bear everything. I do not even have a permenant house. Its not that i don't want to pay you But that i can't.. Do you remember the time when you were worried your seeker would find you as you hide on the pipes of the carpark? Dear Lord, i pray they won't find us.

All day i remembered my hiding place. It was the best place. No one found me. As my mom and i walked, torturing words linked its hands with us. They took the house, $250 000 of deposit that belongs to my grandmama but it weren't enough. For 7 yrs i've paid by instalment.. it can never clear so now they want the whole. Mommy didn't want to tell you because there is nothing you can do. I really feel like giving up all. My heart fell like a broken elevator. Please keep this to yourself at home.

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I want a white oleander tattooed below the one "bare", I want another word;; faith on my foot, i want hours to scroll by shelves of literature books. You read for refuge. One book provides a free ticket to live the lives of many characters. If you're emotionless, which would you choose?

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